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If AI Can Create, What Makes Your Creativity Valuable?

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Last Tuesday, I stared at a blank screen for twenty minutes, trying to write an opening paragraph. Then I watched ChatGPT generate three polished alternatives in eight seconds. Each one was good. Really good. Better than my first draft would’ve been.

I closed my laptop and went for a walk, carrying a question that’s been haunting creative people everywhere: If AI can create—and create well—what’s the point of my creativity anymore?

It’s the wrong question. But I understand why we’re asking it.

The Myth We’re Buying Into

We’ve been sold a story about creativity that’s setting us up for this exact crisis. The story goes like this: creativity is about outputs. The better the output, the more creative you are. The painting. The essay. The design. The song. These finished products are supposedly what creativity is for.

Under this definition, AI wins. It’s faster, more consistent, and produces objectively competent work at a scale no human can match. Game over.

But what if we’ve been measuring the wrong thing all along?

What AI Actually Does

Let’s be precise about what happens when AI creates. When Midjourney generates an image or Claude writes a paragraph, it’s performing an incredibly sophisticated pattern-matching operation. It has processed millions of examples and learned the statistical relationships between prompts and outputs.

This is remarkable. It’s useful. It’s revolutionary for productivity.

But here’s what it isn’t: AI doesn’t wonder. It doesn’t question why it’s creating something. It doesn’t wake up at 3 AM with an idea that won’t let go. It doesn’t create because it needs to understand something about itself or the world.

AI creates because you asked it to.

You create because you’re human.

That difference is everything.

The Real Value of Human Creativity

Your creativity isn’t valuable because of what you make. It’s valuable because of what happens to you while you’re making it.

Think about the last time you were truly engaged in creative work—writing, designing, problem-solving, cooking, building something. What was actually happening? You were encountering resistance. Making choices. Discovering things you didn’t know you thought. Surprising yourself.

You were changing.

This is what creativity actually is: a transformative process. The output is just the evidence that the process occurred. It’s the footprint, not the journey.

AI can produce the footprint. It can’t take the journey.

When you delegate creative work entirely to AI, you’re not saving time. You’re outsourcing your own transformation. You’re skipping the part where you become more than you were.

The Questions AI Can’t Answer

Here’s a test. Ask yourself these questions about your creative work:

Why does this matter to me?

AI has no answer. It has no “me” for things to matter to. You do. Your creativity is valuable because it emerges from your specific history, your wounds, your curiosities, your stubborn questions. No one else has your particular reason for caring about what you care about.

What am I learning about myself through this?

Every creative act is an experiment in self-knowledge. When you write, you discover what you think. When you design, you reveal what you value. When you solve problems, you expose your assumptions. AI learns from data. You learn from doing.

Who am I becoming through this process?

Creativity shapes character. The discipline of showing up. The humility of failing. The courage of sharing unfinished work. The patience of revision. These aren’t side effects of creativity—they’re the point. AI experiences none of this. You live all of it.

A New Framework: Creative Collaboration

So where does this leave us? Not in competition with AI, but in collaboration—but only if we understand the division of labor correctly.

AI excels at:

  • Execution of clear instructions
  • Pattern recognition and application
  • Volume and speed
  • Removing friction from technical tasks
  • First drafts and iterations

Humans excel at:

  • Knowing what’s worth creating and why
  • Bringing context, values, and judgment
  • Making meaning from the process
  • Connecting creation to lived experience
  • Caring about the outcome

The most valuable creativity in the AI age isn’t about being better than AI at AI’s game. It’s about being more fully human in your creative practice.

What This Looks Like Practically

I’m not suggesting you abandon AI tools. I use them. They’re incredibly useful. But I’ve developed a simple checkpoint:

Before I hand something to AI, I ask: “Is there something for me to learn here?”

If yes, I do it myself first. I write the messy first draft. I sketch the rough concept. I think through the problem. Then—only then—I might use AI to refine, expand, or accelerate.

If no—if it’s purely mechanical execution—AI is perfect.

This isn’t about being a purist. It’s about being intentional. It’s about recognizing that some kinds of work are worth doing slowly and clumsily because the real product is who you become in the process.

The Creativity That Matters Now

We’re entering an era where competent creative output will be essentially free. This sounds like a threat to creativity. It’s actually an opportunity.

When technical execution becomes commoditized, what becomes rare and valuable? The things AI can’t provide:

  • Authentic perspective born from lived experience
  • The courage to create something that might fail
  • Work that reflects genuine struggle and growth
  • Creation as an act of meaning-making, not just production
  • The wisdom to know what’s worth creating in the first place

Your creativity isn’t valuable despite AI. It’s valuable because you’re the only one who can answer the question: “What do I need to create to become who I’m meant to be?”

AI will never ask itself that question.

The Real Competition

The competition isn’t between you and AI. It’s between two versions of yourself:

One version outsources every creative challenge to tools, optimizing for efficiency and output. This version produces more. It also transforms less.

Another version uses AI strategically while protecting the creative processes that make you more human. This version produces differently. It also becomes more.

Which version do you want to be in five years?

Your Move

I’m not writing this to make you feel guilty about using AI. I’m writing it because I’ve felt the seductive pull of efficiency, and I’ve noticed what I lose when I give in too completely.

I’ve noticed that the blog posts I truly care about are the ones I struggled to write, not the ones AI helped me polish. I’ve noticed that my best ideas come from the frustrated scribbling, not the prompt engineering. I’ve noticed that I feel more alive when I’m creating badly than when I’m delegating well.

Your creativity is valuable for exactly one reason: because it’s yours. It comes from you, changes you, and reflects you. AI can do many things, but it can never be you.

That’s not a limitation of AI.

That’s the entire point of being human.

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How to Live a Life of Silence, Simplicity and Solitude in Everyday Life

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The Crisis of Constant Noise

In a world that never stops talking, buzzing, and demanding our attention, three ancient practices offer a path back to ourselves—and to God. Silence, simplicity, and solitude aren’t about escaping life. They’re about finally learning how to live it.

We live in an age where noise has become so normalized that silence feels awkward, even threatening. Pastor and author Eugene Peterson once observed that we need to be cautious about technology because we live in a world that is neither God-fearing nor life-reverencing.

The result? We’re exhausted, distracted, and disconnected—not just from God, but from our own souls.

Trappist monk Thomas Merton wisely noted: “When we live superficially, we are always outside ourselves, never quite ‘with’ ourselves, always divided and pulled in many directions.”

If this resonates with you, there’s a way forward.

The Forgotten Art of Silence

What Silence Really Means

Silence isn’t merely the absence of sound. It’s the presence of attentiveness. Merton taught that words stand between silence and silence—between the silence of things and the silence of our own being, between the silence of the world and the silence of God.

Eugene Peterson understood this deeply. Those who knew him noted that “he legalized silence”—he made it okay to simply sit with God without filling every moment with words.

Practicing Silence in Daily Life

You don’t need to become a monk to practice silence. Begin with these steps:

Morning Silence (10-15 minutes)

  • Before checking your phone, sit in silence
  • Focus on your breathing
  • Allow your mind to settle like sediment in water
  • Simply be present to God’s presence

Technology Sabbath Peterson himself noted: “I need a lot of silence. We don’t have a television. I don’t use the internet.” While you don’t need to go this far, consider creating tech-free zones in your day—turn off notifications during prayer, make one meal phone-free, or try a weekly “digital sunset.”

Listening Prayer Peterson taught that prayer trains the soul to focus singularly on God. Try this practice:

  1. Find a quiet place
  2. Acknowledge God’s presence
  3. Say: “Speak, Lord, your servant is listening”
  4. Wait in silence for 10-20 minutes
  5. Don’t force answers—simply remain open

The Liberation of Simplicity

Why Simplicity Matters

Eugene Peterson captured it beautifully: “Simplicity is not necessarily about doing less; it’s about focusing on what truly matters.”

In Catholic tradition, simplicity is rooted in the vow of poverty—not as deprivation, but as freedom. German Benedictine monk Anselm Grün teaches that simplicity creates interior space where God can dwell. When our lives are cluttered with possessions and commitments, there’s no room left for the divine.

Living Simply in a Complex World

Simplify Your Space

  • Clear one drawer, one closet, one room at a time
  • Ask of each possession: “Does this serve my spiritual life or distract from it?”
  • Remember the Benedictine principle: own what you need, don’t want what you don’t need

Simplify Your Schedule Peterson once asked: “How can I lead people into the quiet place beside the still waters if I am in perpetual motion?”

  • Learn to say “no” to good things so you can say “yes” to the best things
  • Guard your calendar as you would guard your soul

Simplify Your Desires Practice examining your wants:

  • What do I truly need versus what does advertising tell me I need?
  • Am I seeking God’s kingdom first, or building my own empire?
  • What would my life look like if I lived with “enough” instead of “more”?

The Gift of Solitude

Solitude vs. Loneliness

Many confuse solitude with loneliness, but they’re opposites. Loneliness is being alone and feeling abandoned. Solitude is being alone and feeling found.

Thomas Merton understood this: “A man becomes a solitary at the moment when, no matter what may be his external surroundings, he is suddenly aware of his own inalienable solitude and sees that he will never be anything but solitary.”

This isn’t nihilism—it’s truth. And in that truth, we discover we’re never truly alone because God is there.

Creating Space for Solitude

Daily Solitude

  • Wake 15 minutes earlier than your household
  • Take a solitary walk during lunch
  • Spend the first moments after arriving home in quiet before engaging with family

Extended Solitude While few of us will become hermits, we can create mini-retreats:

  • A half-day retreat once a month at a local monastery or church
  • An annual weekend of silence and solitude
  • Even an hour alone in nature, without devices, can be transformative

Solitude in Community Peterson taught that communal prayer is actually the foundation for individual prayer. The paradox is real: we need community to learn solitude, and we need solitude to truly be present in community.

Integrating the Three: A Practical Framework

The Daily Rhythm

Morning (15-30 minutes)

  • Silence: Sit in quiet presence before God
  • Simplicity: Review your day ahead, releasing unnecessary commitments
  • Solitude: Begin your day alone with God before engaging with others

Midday (5-10 minutes)

  • Silence: A brief pause, perhaps breath prayer
  • Simplicity: Check in—am I still focused on what matters?
  • Solitude: A moment of interior recollection

Evening (15-20 minutes)

  • Silence: Review the day with God
  • Simplicity: Release the day’s concerns
  • Solitude: Close the day in quiet prayer

The Weekly Rhythm

Following Peterson’s teaching, attend Sunday worship faithfully. Add:

  • One extended period of silence (1-2 hours)
  • One act of simplification (declutter, say no to something, give something away)
  • One experience of solitude in nature or sacred space

The Yearly Rhythm

  • Quarterly: A half-day retreat
  • Annually: A 2-3 day silent retreat
  • Seasonally: Align your practice with the liturgical calendar—Advent and Lent are natural seasons for deepening

Overcoming Common Obstacles

“I Don’t Have Time”

Peterson dedicated himself to being an “unbusy” pastor. The truth is, we make time for what we value. Start with five minutes. You’ll find that these disciplines don’t take time from your life—they give time back by helping you live more intentionally.

“Silence Makes Me Anxious”

This is normal. Start with just 3-5 minutes. Let your anxiety be present without letting it be in charge. Over time, you’ll discover that silence isn’t empty—it’s full of God’s presence.

“I Have a Family—This Seems Impossible”

Peterson noted that “Christian spirituality means living in the mature wholeness of the gospel. It means taking all the elements of your life—children, spouse, job—and experiencing them as an act of faith.”

These practices aren’t about escaping your life but about bringing God more fully into it. Even parents need moments of solitude—it makes you a better spouse and parent.

The Transformation That Awaits

What happens when we embrace silence, simplicity, and solitude?

We Become More Human – Peterson believed that when God fills the world, we discover every conversation to be a burning bush—holiness everywhere.

We Become More Present – Merton taught that contemplation allows us to deepen our self-understanding, freedom, and capacity to love.

We Become More Like Christ – Jesus himself modeled these practices. He spent many nights alone on the mountain in prayer. If the Son of God needed silence, simplicity, and solitude, how much more do we?

Beginning Today

You don’t need to master all three at once. Choose one:

If you’re overwhelmed: Start with simplicity. Clear one space. Say no to one commitment.

If you’re distracted: Start with silence. Five minutes a day, no words, just presence.

If you’re disconnected: Start with solitude. One walk alone, no phone, just you and God.

Merton prayed: “My Lord God, I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me. But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you.”

This is the faith required to begin: not certainty about the outcome, but trust in the Guide.

The journey into silence, simplicity, and solitude is the journey home—to yourself, to others, and most of all, to God.

Will you begin today?

What has been your experience with silence, simplicity, or solitude? Share your thoughts with me!

Digital ID and religious freedom: What christians need to know!

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Introduction: A New Era of Identification

We’re standing at a technological crossroads. Around the world, governments are rolling out digital identity systems—sophisticated frameworks that promise convenience, security, and efficiency. From India’s Aadhaar system to the European Union’s digital wallet initiative, digital IDs are rapidly becoming the new standard for how citizens interact with their governments and access services.

For Christians navigating this landscape, an important question emerges: How do these systems impact our religious freedom? And perhaps more urgently: What should we know before these systems become mandatory?

What Exactly Is a Digital ID?

A digital identity system is more than just an online version of your driver’s license. It’s a comprehensive digital framework that can include:

  • Biometric data (fingerprints, facial recognition, iris scans)
  • Personal information (birth records, addresses, family connections)
  • Financial records and transaction history
  • Health records and vaccination status
  • Social media activity and digital footprint
  • Movement patterns and location data

These elements combine to create a detailed digital profile that can be accessed, verified, and potentially monitored by authorities—and in some cases, private corporations.

The Promise: Convenience and Security

Proponents of digital ID systems highlight genuine benefits. Digital identification can streamline government services, reduce identity fraud, make online transactions more secure, and help combat illegal activities. For developing nations, digital IDs can bring millions of people into the formal economy who previously lacked official documentation.

These aren’t trivial advantages. In a world of increasing digital interaction, some form of secure online identity verification makes practical sense.

The Concern: Power, Access, and Control

However, Christians have historically understood that concentrated power—even power intended for good—requires careful scrutiny. Several concerns deserve our attention:

1. Access Control and Exclusion

Digital ID systems often become gatekeepers to essential services. In China’s social credit system, we’ve seen how digital identity can be weaponized to restrict travel, education, and employment based on government-approved behavior. Christians in China have experienced church closures, surveillance, and restrictions specifically because their digital footprint reveals their faith activities.

The question isn’t whether your government would do this—it’s whether the infrastructure you’re building could enable it under different leadership.

2. Religious Expression and Assembly

When attendance at church services, donations to religious organizations, or participation in faith-based activities becomes digitally trackable, a chilling effect can occur. We’re already seeing this in some jurisdictions where:

  • Church check-ins are recorded and stored
  • Financial contributions are monitored for “extremism”
  • Religious literature downloads are tracked
  • Online religious gatherings require verified identity

Historical persecution of Christians often began not with outright bans, but with registration requirements and monitoring systems.

3. Conscience and Compliance

What happens when accessing healthcare, employment, or education requires digital verification—but that system also tracks behavior that conflicts with Christian conscience? This isn’t hypothetical. Some digital ID proposals include social scoring mechanisms that reward or punish behavior based on government priorities.

For Christians who believe in answering to God above government, mandatory participation in comprehensive tracking systems poses a serious dilemma.

Biblical Principles to Consider

As we navigate these questions, several biblical principles should guide our thinking:

Render to Caesar, Render to God

Jesus distinguished between obligations to government and obligations to God (Matthew 22:21). Christians have a long tradition of civic participation and respect for legitimate authority. However, when governmental systems demand what belongs to God alone—conscience, worship, belief—we face the same question the apostles faced: “Should we obey God or human beings?” (Acts 5:29)

The Image of God

Every human bears God’s image (Genesis 1:27), possessing inherent dignity that no state can grant or revoke. Digital systems that reduce people to data points, behavioral scores, or risk assessments can dehumanize in subtle but profound ways. Christians should ask: Does this system respect human dignity, or does it reduce persons to profiles?

Stewardship and Wisdom

We’re called to be “wise as serpents and innocent as doves” (Matthew 10:16). This means neither fearful paranoia nor naive trust. We should understand the systems being built, ask critical questions, and advocate for safeguards that protect human dignity and religious liberty.

Community and the Common Good

Christianity emphasizes both individual conscience and communal responsibility. We should consider how digital ID systems affect not just ourselves, but vulnerable populations: minorities, dissidents, the poor, and yes—religious communities that may fall out of favor.

Practical Steps: What Can Christians Do?

1. Stay Informed

Understand what digital ID proposals actually contain. Read the legislation. Ask questions. Don’t rely solely on government assurances or critic’s fears—investigate for yourself.

2. Engage Politically

Contact representatives. Advocate for:

  • Strong privacy protections
  • Limits on data collection and retention
  • Prohibition of social scoring systems
  • Opt-out provisions for conscience objections
  • Transparent oversight and accountability mechanisms

3. Support Organizations Defending Freedom

Numerous legal and advocacy organizations work to protect religious liberty. Support them financially and through prayer. They’re often first to identify threats and mount legal challenges.

4. Build Alternative Communities

The early church thrived under Roman surveillance by maintaining strong, resilient communities. Whatever digital systems emerge, Christian community—physical, relational, embodied—remains essential. Invest in local church, face-to-face relationships, and networks of mutual support.

5. Prepare for Difficult Choices

There may come a time when participation in certain systems conflicts with Christian conscience. Think through these scenarios now, in community with other believers, so you’re not caught unprepared.

Finding Balance: Neither Fear Nor Naivety

Christians should avoid two extremes.

The first extreme is paranoid fear that sees every technological development as prophetic doom. This leads to isolation, conspiracy thinking, and a failure to engage constructively with the real world.

The second extreme is naive optimism that assumes technology is neutral and progress is inevitable. This leads to passive acceptance of systems that may genuinely threaten freedom.

The biblical position is sober-minded engagement: acknowledge real risks, advocate for proper safeguards, maintain hope in God’s sovereignty, and continue faithful witness regardless of circumstances.

Conclusion: Vigilance and Hope

Digital ID systems are coming. In many places, they’re already here. Christians need not fear technology itself—but we should insist that technological systems respect human dignity, protect conscience rights, and include meaningful safeguards against abuse.

History teaches that freedoms lost are rarely regained without cost. The time to ask questions, demand transparency, and advocate for protection is before systems become entrenched and mandatory.

At the same time, our ultimate hope doesn’t rest in political systems or technological architectures. We serve a King whose kingdom cannot be tracked, monitored, or controlled by any earthly power. That conviction should give us courage to speak truth, wisdom to navigate complex systems, and peace regardless of what unfolds.

The question isn’t whether digital IDs will exist—they will. The question is whether they’ll exist with proper limits, genuine accountability, and respect for the freedoms that allow faith to flourish.

That’s a question worth fighting for.

Discussion Questions:

  • How does your country currently approach digital identification?
  • What safeguards would you want to see in any digital ID system?
  • How can Christians balance civic responsibility with conscience protection?
  • What can we learn from Christians living under restrictive surveillance states?

For Further Reading:

  • “The Age of Surveillance Capitalism” by Shoshana Zuboff
  • “Live Not By Lies” by Rod Dreher
  • Reports from Open Doors, International Christian Concern, and Alliance Defending Freedom on religious persecution and surveillance

How AI Threatens Your Job (And Why Nobody’s Talking About It)

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While we’re busy worrying about the weather and the latest political scandal, something is happening behind the scenes that could drastically change your life in the coming years. And chances are, you haven’t heard about it yet.

What’s Going On?

Artificial intelligence – you might know it from ChatGPT or Siri or others – is no longer science fiction. It’s currently changing the way companies operate. And that has major consequences for ordinary working people.

Think about Maria, who worked as a customer service representative at an insurance company for ten years. Last month, she learned that her position won’t be filled when she retires. A chatbot is taking over her tasks.

Or Peter, an accountant at a mid-sized company. His department of eight people has shrunk to three over the past two years. Not through layoffs, but through positions that simply aren’t being filled anymore. AI software now does the work.

These aren’t exceptions. This is the new reality.

The Numbers Don’t Lie

Experts predict that in Europe alone, 12 million jobs will disappear or completely change due to AI in the next three years. In America, 2 million people have already been affected by this shift.

But here’s the thing: you won’t see this reflected in unemployment statistics. Why not?

Companies use a clever strategy they call “natural attrition”:

  • Someone retires? The position is eliminated.
  • A colleague quits? The job quietly disappears.
  • Reorganization? Teams become “more efficient” (read: smaller).

No mass layoffs. No negative publicity. Just a slow, silent erosion of the middle class.

Which Jobs Are Most Vulnerable?

You might think: “My job is safe, I work with people.” Unfortunately, reality is different. AI is primarily taking over work from people who:

  • Perform administrative tasks (processing invoices, data entry)
  • Have customer contact via chat or phone
  • Do translation or writing work
  • Perform accounting tasks
  • Create basic analyses

A real-world example: freelance translators saw their income drop by 30% since ChatGPT launched. Accounting departments now run 60% on automation.

“But New Jobs Will Be Created, Right?”

You hear this often. And it’s true: new jobs are indeed being created in the AI sector. But here’s the problem:

  • 75% of these new positions require at least a master’s degree
  • 18% require a doctorate
  • These jobs are primarily for young, highly educated professionals

In other words: if you’re 45 now and work as an administrative assistant, you can forget about those “new opportunities.” That economy wasn’t built for you.

The Flip Side: From Middle Class to Working Poor

This is where it gets painful. Between 10 and 15 million people in the West will see their economic position deteriorate in the coming years. Not officially unemployed, but:

  • Forced from full-time to part-time
  • Working far below their education level
  • Needing multiple jobs to make ends meet
  • Having a college degree but working as a delivery driver or chauffeur

Technically, they don’t count in unemployment statistics. But economically? They’re lost.

“Just Retrain!”

This is the advice you hear everywhere. Politicians, economists, business leaders – they all say the same thing: “People need to adapt and learn new skills.”

But let’s be realistic: do you really expect a 50-year-old administrative worker with a family and mortgage to suddenly get a master’s in data science? Or for a nurse to take online programming courses in the evening after a long shift?

It’s not just unrealistic – it’s disrespectful to people who have worked hard their entire lives.

Why Aren’t We Hearing More About This?

Good question. While we have days-long debates about various political issues, this topic remains strangely under-discussed:

  • No major political debates about AI’s impact on work
  • Little media attention
  • No concrete plans to protect people
  • Companies communicate it away cleverly with nice words like “efficiency” and “digital transformation”

Meanwhile, the middle class is under pressure.

What Now?

This isn’t meant to scare you, but to make you aware. We’re on the eve of the biggest economic shift since the Industrial Revolution.

And the strange thing? We’re just letting it happen. Without a real plan. Without a safety net. Without an honest conversation about how to ensure the benefits of this technology reach everyone, not just a small group of shareholders.

What Can You Do?

  1. Keep developing – even though “retraining” isn’t a magic solution, standing still isn’t an option
  2. Talk about it – with colleagues, family, friends. Make it discussable
  3. Stay alert – which tasks in your job could be automated?
  4. Build connections – in uncertain times, a strong network is gold
  5. Think beyond your job – work is important, but it doesn’t define who you are

In Closing

The coming years will be crucial. Millions of ordinary, hardworking people face enormous challenges. Not through their own failure, but through technological developments beyond their control.

The least we can do is talk about it honestly. Acknowledge the impact. And think together about how to ensure no one is left on the sidelines.

Because this isn’t about technology. This is about people. About you. About your neighbor. About all of us.

Frans Horsthuis (1921-2018)

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Afgelopen woensdag 19 december is onze goede vriend Frans Horsthuis in alle rust overleden in zijn huis in Doetinchem. Frans is 97 jaar geworden. Zelf zou hij daarover zeggen dat “zijn stage periode nu achter de rug is”.

Als je hem niet hebt gekend zal ik eerst even beschrijven wie Frans Horsthuis was. Frans werd geboren in 1921 en was als priester en zielzorger 21 jaar lang werkzaam in het bisdom Utrecht. In de 60er jaren maakte hij een ingrijpende vernieuwing in zijn geloofsleven door. Het nieuwe fundament voor zijn leven werd: “… niets anders te weten dan Jezus en Die gekruisigd” (1 Cor. 2,2). Dit werd later terug gebracht tot de kern “Jezus-­alleen”! Als nieuwe levensopdracht gaf de Heer hem te bidden voor een vernieuwde Kerk van Europa en visie daarvoor. Veertig jaar lang zwierf hij zonder geld en vaste woonplaats door Europa, met name achter het ijzeren gordijn. Zijn eerste boek “De Koninklijke Weg” verscheen in 1990, voor velen een kennismaking met hem.

Het begin van onze vriendschap met Frans begon met het lezen van dat boek. Wat ik anders nooit deed was dat ik na het lezen besloot een brief te schrijven aan hem. Ik schreef hem dat het me zeer had aangesproken en dat we hem graag een keer zouden willen ontmoeten. Een aantal maanden later belde Frans onverwachts en zat hij op een zondagmiddag in onze huiskamer in Rijsenhout, onze toenmalige woonplaats. Deze ontmoeting was het begin van een bijzondere vriendschap die (bijna) 30 jaar duurde. Wat we vooral geleerd hebben van Frans is om niet zomaar gelovig te zijn of kerkelijk. Om niet alleen in Jezus te geloven maar ook van Hem te houden! Vanuit dat “houden van” beslissingen te nemen die je wat kosten. Om er onvoorwaardelijk voor te gaan en “Jezus-­alleen” vorm te geven in ons leven. Heel anders dan de weg die Frans ging maar wel geïnspireerd vanuit die zelfde Vriendschap.

Vanmiddag hebben we hem met een kleine vriendengroep van 12 personen naar zijn laatste rustplaats gebracht. Het was een bijzonder samen-zijn waarin we herinneringen hebben gedeeld. Waarin we hebben gedeeld hoe en wanneer we Frans hebben leren kennen en wat hij voor ons heeft betekend. Daarvandaan zijn we naar de begraafplaats gereden en hebben zijn lichaam terug gegeven aan de aarde. Op de begraafplaats vertelde Bert, die Frans de laatste jaren praktisch verzorgde, nog een prachtig detail over Frans’ graf. Frans was er oprecht trots op dat hij vernoemd was naar Franciscus van Assisi. Die Franciscus leefde vanuit volstrekte armoede en omzien naar mensen die onvrijwillig in grote armoede leefden. Frans deelt zijn graf met de man die bekend stond als “de zwerver van Doetinchem”. Dat raakte ons, die Frans al zolang kennen, diep omdat dit Frans zo kenmerkt.

De afgelopen maanden zijn we een paar maal bij Frans op bezoek geweest. Wat we heel bijzonder vinden is dat we alle drie ervaren hebben dat wij de opdracht van Frans mogen gaan voortzetten. De opdracht om “te bidden voor een vernieuwde Kerk van Europa en visie daarvoor” is iets waar we zelf ook al veel langer mee bezig zijn. Niet zozeer nieuwe vormen of “anders kerk zijn” maar biddend zoeken naar een werkelijke diepgaande vernieuwing.

Wij zijn dankbaar voor onze vriendschap die we hebben gehad met Frans Horsthuis en de vele lessen die we van hem hebben meegekregen.

ooo000ooo